The Three Words That Saved My Life | Blake Mycoskie | TED · TED
Blake Mycoskie分享他如何通过三个关键词汇战胜抑郁症，重新找回自我价值。适合练习情感表达和成长主题。
When I started TOMS Shoes, I lived on a 45-foot sailboat in Marina del Rey.
当我创立 TOMS 鞋子品牌时，我住在马里纳德尔雷（Marina del Rey）的一艘长 45 英尺的帆船上。
I didn't have much -- a few bags of clothes, a bike, a surfboard and a laptop.
我拥有的东西并不多：几袋衣服、一辆自行车、一块冲浪板，还有一台笔记本电脑。
That was it.
就这样结束了。
And those were some of the happiest years of my life.
那些是我一生中最快乐的时光。
I woke up to the ocean rocking me.
我醒来时，发现海洋正在轻轻摇晃着我。
I made coffee barefoot.
我光着脚煮了咖啡。
I felt clear, inspired and alive.
我感到头脑清醒、充满灵感，整个人都仿佛焕发了新的活力。
Now let’s fast-forward 20 years.
现在，让我们快进20年。
TOMS had become a global brand.
TOMS 已经成为一个全球性的品牌。
Our one-for-one model had given over 100 million shoes to children in need around the world.
我们的“一对一”捐赠模式已向全球各地有需要的儿童捐赠了超过1亿双鞋子。
And personally, I had made more money than I ever thought was possible.
就我个人而言，我赚的钱超出了我原本想象中的任何可能。
And yet, 23 months ago,
然而，23个月前……
I had become so lost, so hopeless and so depressed that I made a plan to end my life.
我感到如此迷茫、绝望和沮丧，以至于萌生了结束自己生命的念头。
(Voice breaking) And I chose that boat as the place to do it on
（声音颤抖）我选择了那艘船作为实施计划的地点。
Not because I wanted to die there, but because I didn't want my family to be the ones who found me.
并不是因为我想在那里死去，而是因为我不希望我的家人成为发现我的人。
Knowing that I was going to say that today, here on the stage, is definitely the hardest part of preparing for this talk.
知道我今天会在这里的舞台上说出这番话，确实是准备这次演讲过程中最困难的部分。
Thankfully, I did not act on that plan.
幸运的是，我没有按照那个计划行事。
Instead, I reached out to my friends and my family and I told them the truth.
相反，我联系了我的朋友和家人，并告诉了他们真相。
Not that I was stressed, not that I lost my purpose.
并不是说我感到压力很大，也不是说我失去了生活的目标或方向。
I told them I wasn’t OK -- and that decision saved my life.
我告诉他们我的身体状况很糟糕，而这个决定救了我的命。
I then met an incredible psychiatrist who helped me really slow down and understand how I got there.
后来，我遇到了一位非常出色的精神科医生，他帮助我放慢了生活节奏，并让我明白了自己为什么会陷入那样的困境。
Not just what I was feeling, but why.
不仅仅是我的感受，还有为什么会有这样的感受。
We then spent five months weaning me off four different medications I had been put on when I was misdiagnosed as bipolar.
随后，我们花了五个月的时间让我逐渐停止服用四种不同的药物。这些药物是我在被误诊为双相情感障碍时开始服用的。
Five months.
五个月。
And during that time, the anxiety did not get better -- it got worse.
在那段时间里，焦虑情绪并没有好转，反而变得更加严重了。
And the racing thoughts in my head almost became unbearable.
我脑海中那些纷乱、急速旋转的思绪几乎让人无法忍受。
But eventually, my mind started to settle, and something became impossible to ignore.
但最终，我的思绪逐渐平静下来，有些事情变得再也无法被忽视了。
There was a core wound underneath it all ...
在这一切的背后，存在着一个根本性的问题（或伤害）。
a very, very old one.
一个非常非常古老的物品。
And it said this: "You are not enough."
上面写着这样一句话：“你还不够。
The truth is, I had never felt that I was enough.
事实上，我从未觉得自己足够好（或：从未觉得自己具备足够的条件）。
Not as a kid, not as an athlete,
小时候不是，当运动员的时候也不是。
not as a founder,
不是作为创始人；
not as a human.
不是以人类的身份来说的。
And when I looked honestly at my life, I saw something that was really painful.
当我诚实地审视自己的生活时，我发现了一些非常令人痛苦的事情。
Everything I had done for the first 48 years was an attempt to earn my worth --
在我人生的前48年里，我所做的一切都是为了证明自己的价值。
becoming a championship tennis player, starting multiple businesses, building TOMS and becoming the poster child of conscious capitalism.
成为一名冠军级网球运动员，创办多家企业，创立了 TOMS（一家致力于改善贫困地区儿童生活状况的非营利组织），并成为“有意识资本主义”（即注重社会责任和可持续发展的资本主义模式）的代表人物。
I mean, there were the magazine covers, the stages just like this one, the awards and the accolades,
我的意思是，有杂志封面、像这样的舞台表演、各种奖项以及众多的赞誉……
because I believed that achievement would quiet that voice.
因为我相信，通过取得成就，我内心的那个“质疑的声音”就会安静下来。
Instead, it made it louder.
相反，它只是让声音变得更大了而已。