Finding sobriety on a mountaintop | Scott Strode | TEDxMileHigh · TEDx Talks
Scott Strode通过登山和运动摆脱了酒精和毒品依赖，分享了他在运动中找到自信与新身份的经历。适合练习听力和理解励志故事。
Translator: Rhonda Jacobs Reviewer: Ellen Maloney
翻译者：Rhonda Jacobs 审稿人：Ellen Maloney
I am a person in long-term recovery from a substance-use disorder.
我是一个正在长期康复中的人，曾经患有物质使用障碍（即滥用药物或酒精等）。
And what that means is I haven't smoked crack, snorted a line of cocaine, or touched a sip of alcohol in over 19 years.
这意味着，在过去的19年里，我从未吸过可卡因（无论是通过鼻吸的方式还是其他方式），也从未喝过一滴酒。
I had my first beer at 11.
我11岁的时候第一次喝了啤酒。
One of my cousins gave it to me.
是我的一个表亲送给我的。
I had my first line of coke at 15.
我15岁时第一次吸食了可卡因。
I had just gotten out of a psych ward for being suicidal.
我刚刚从精神病病房出院，原因是我有自杀倾向。
From 15 to 24, I drank and used my way through life, and eventually ended up in Boston.
15岁到24岁期间，我沉溺于酒精和各种放纵的生活方式，最终来到了波士顿。
At that point, my addiction had gotten so bad that I was paranoid, and afraid of everything.
到了那个时候，我的毒瘾已经严重到让我产生妄想症，对一切都感到恐惧。
I found myself locked in my apartment,
我发现自己被锁在了公寓里。
and there in the dark, huddled on the bathroom floor, I had been using cocaine for almost 24 hours straight.
在那个漆黑的房间里，我蜷缩在浴室的地板上，已经连续使用了可卡因将近24个小时了。
My heart was pounding, and it felt like it was going to explode in my chest.
我的心跳得非常剧烈，感觉仿佛要从胸腔里“爆炸”出来一样。
I knew that's how I was going to die.
我就知道我会这样死去。
And when the sun rose on Boston that morning, do you know what I thought of?
那天早晨，当太阳从波士顿升起的时候，你知道我在想什么吗？
I thought of my mom.
我想起了我的妈妈。
I thought, "Somebody is going to have to tell her that her son died on a bathroom floor from a cocaine overdose."
我想：“总得有人告诉她，她的儿子在浴室的地板上因可卡因过量而去世了。
And that's the last night I used.
那就是我最后一次使用它的那个晚上。
No one ever dreams they're going to grow up to be an addict.
没有人会想到自己长大后会变成一个瘾君子。
I found my way into a boxing gym, and something about getting in the ring for the first time helped chip away at my addiction.
我找到了那家拳击馆；第一次走进拳击台的感觉，似乎帮助我逐渐摆脱了那种瘾症（或：那种困扰我的不良习惯）。
Eventually, I saw a brochure for ice climbing.
最终，我看到了一本关于冰攀运动的宣传册。
And on the cover was this guy on a steep ice climb, and I thought, "I want to try that."
封面上是一个正在陡峭冰面上攀爬的人，我心想：“我也想试试看。
I signed up for a class, and I didn't know it at the time, but I had begun my path of recovery.
我报名参加了一门课程，当时并不知道，但实际上我已经踏上了康复之路。
See, there's something special that happens when you tie into a climbing rope for the first time in the winter.
你看，在冬天第一次将自己与攀岩绳连接在一起时，会发生一些特别的事情。
You look up at the glacier or the climb ahead of you, and everything else seems to melt away.
你抬头望着面前的冰川或即将攀登的山峰，此时其他一切似乎都消失了（仿佛被融化了）。
All the problems, all your worries, all the shame and self-loathing from your addiction that so many addicts feel -
所有的问题、所有的烦恼、所有的羞耻感以及自我厌恶情绪——这些都是许多成瘾者所经历的。
it all drifts away and you're left just in that moment.
所有的一切都渐渐消散了，只剩下那一刻本身。
All you hear is the crunch of the snow under your crampons;
你听到的只有雪在冰爪下发出的嘎吱声；
the sound your ice ax makes when it cracks into the deep blue ice;
你的冰斧在坚硬的蓝冰上划裂时发出的声音；
the sound of your breathing as it drifts away and is muted by the soft falling snow.
你的呼吸声渐渐消失在空气中，被轻轻飘落的雪花所掩盖……
In that moment, in that place, I caught a glimpse of the possibility of who I could be:
在那一刻，在那个地方，我瞥见了自己有可能成为的那样一个人。
courageous and confident.
勇敢且自信。
Climbing would evolve into racing mountain bikes, doing triathlons, eventually racing Ironman.
攀岩运动逐渐演变为山地自行车比赛、铁人三项比赛，最终发展为铁人三项（Ironman）赛事。
And every time I stood on top of a mountain
每次我站在山顶上……
or crossed a finish line, I was a little bit more a climber and a little bit less an addict.
无论我是完成了某项任务，还是冲过了终点线，我都会更倾向于将自己视为一个“攀登者”（即一个勇于面对挑战、不断进步的人），而不再那么沉迷于某些事物（或者说，我的“成瘾”行为会减轻一些）。
I was fortunate; I found hope on a mountaintop.
我很幸运——我在山顶上找到了希望。
And from that hope, I began to heal from my addiction.
正是基于这份希望，我开始逐渐摆脱自己的毒瘾。
But for so many people that are still in their addiction, it can feel pretty hopeless.
但对那些仍然深陷成瘾困境中的人来说，这种情况确实会让人感到无比绝望。
An estimated 23 million Americans struggle with a substance-use disorder,
据估计，有2300万美国人正在与物质使用障碍作斗争。
and the average American is more likely to die from an overdose than a motor vehicle accident, a mass shooting,
平均而言，美国人因药物过量死亡的概率，要比因机动车事故或大规模枪击事件死亡的概率更高。
and a terrorist attack, combined.
一场恐怖袭击与这些事件共同发生了。