Why I Disappeared from YouTube after 18 YEARS... · Hey Nadine
讲述博主因育儿和身体原因暂时离开YouTube的经历，适合练习生活、成长和情感类话题。
This is the longest I have ever
这是我写过的最长的文章了。
been away from YouTube in the last
最近有一段时间没有使用 YouTube 了。
18 years of creating on this platform and I didn't do it just because all the cool kids were doing it.
我在这个平台上创作了18年，而之所以坚持这样做，并不是因为所有“酷孩子”都在这么做。
A lot has happened, so let's get you up to speed.
发生了很多事情，让我们帮你快速了解一下最近的情况吧。
So what actually happened and why did I disappear?
那么，到底发生了什么？为什么我会“消失”呢？
Well, if you've been following me on Instagram or if you watch my shorts here on YouTube, then you know that I really didn't disappear.
嗯，如果你一直在 Instagram 上关注我，或者你在 YouTube 上观看我的短视频，那么你就应该知道：我其实并没有“消失”哦。
It's only really been the last few months I took the summer off because, well, I just had another baby.
直到最近几个月，我才真正休了暑假——因为，嗯，我又生了一个孩子。
Yes, I told you lots to catch up on.
是的，我告诉过你有很多事情需要了解（或者说有很多内容需要补上）。
I've got two kids now.
我现在有两个孩子了。
Two kids, what has happened?
两个孩子……到底发生了什么事？
So this is Oscar, my second little boy, and we've just passed the newborn phase,
这是奥斯卡，我的第二个儿子。我们刚刚度过了新生儿期。
which is chaotic and very tiring and totally different the second time around.
第一次的经历充满了混乱与疲惫；而第二次则完全不同了。
I mean, with your first kid, you are learning and you have this almost like newborn like bliss,
我的意思是，当你有了第一个孩子时，你还在学习如何照顾他（或她），那种感觉就像拥有一个新生儿一样幸福无比。
where you're tired, but it's just so magical.
在那里，你会感到疲惫，但整个场景却充满了魔力（即显得非常美丽、令人陶醉）。
Well, second kid, you don't really get that because you also got a toddler that's running around and needing your attention.
嗯，作为第二个孩子，你可能不太能理解这种感受——因为你还有个正在到处跑来跑去、需要你关注的幼儿（即你的弟弟或妹妹）。
So needless to say, we've been very, very busy.
因此，不用说，我们一直都非常非常忙碌。
So why I needed time away, we
那么，为什么我需要一段时间的独处呢？
knew we needed to take this time
我们知道我们需要花些时间来处理这件事。
off to be fully present to find
（为了能够完全专注于当下、并找到所需的答案或解决方案，人们会暂时离开当前的环境或活动……）
our footing again as most families and most people do when they have kids or add more kids to their kids grow their family.
我们重新找回了稳定的生活状态——就像大多数家庭和大多数人一样，当他们有了孩子，或者又添了孩子后，他们的家庭规模就会扩大。
That's what I'm looking for.
这就是我一直在寻找的东西。
But before then, I know that we haven't really posted a video on here since November, which is almost a whole year.
不过在那之前，我知道我们自去年11月以来就再也没有在这里发布过任何视频了——差不多已经过去整整一年了。
Now, the reality is this pregnancy was significantly harder on me physically and emotionally,
现实情况是，这次怀孕在身体和情绪上给我带来了极大的困扰。
which I am going to go all in about in my next video all about my pregnancy.
关于这个话题，我将在下一个关于我怀孕过程的视频中详细展开讨论。
So we'll just leave that at that.
那么我们就把这件事暂时搁置在这里吧。
And I knew it was going to be too much to be pregnant, to take care of a toddler,
我知道怀孕的同时还要照顾一个蹒跚学步的孩子，这对我来说实在太难承受了。
which we still didn't have childcare for, to post shorts, TikToks, IG Reels,
但我们当时仍然没有适合儿童使用的托儿服务；因此我们只能通过发布短视频（如 TikTok、Instagram Reels 等）来表达自己的想法。
stories, YouTube videos, and we're going to project that I've been wanting to do for forever.
故事、YouTube视频……这些都是我一直想做的事情。
So something had to be cut and the best possible one was long form YouTube.
因此，必须舍弃某些内容；而最合适的替代方案就是发布长篇内容的 YouTube 视频。
The reason being is unlike short form,
原因在于，与缩写形式不同……
long form videos have legs because of
长格式视频之所以能够持续流行（或获得广泛关注），原因在于……
search and you can easily watch long form videos that are years old and not really think anything of it.
只需进行简单搜索，你就能轻松观看那些已经存在多年的长视频，而对此几乎不会产生任何特别的想法（或：你完全可以毫无顾虑地观看这些旧视频）。
Short form, on the other hand, is totally different.
另一方面，缩写形式则完全不同。
Older Instagrams just feel so much more dated and really the algorithm just doesn't favor them.
较早期的 Instagram 内容确实显得更加过时了，而且算法也不倾向于优先展示这些内容。
After ample reflection time, I realized that I miss YouTube and creating long form content.
经过充分的思考后，我意识到自己非常怀念 YouTube，以及制作长篇内容（如视频、文章等）的体验。
It has always been more me and I feel like this is kind of where I belong.
一直以来，我都更倾向于独来独往；我觉得自己似乎更适合这样的生活状态。
It has always been my preferred medium as a content creator.
作为内容创作者，这一直是我最偏爱的创作方式。
Now, while I have enjoyed experimenting with short form content and will continue to do so,
虽然我很享受尝试创作短篇内容，并且也会继续这样做，
I am now refocusing and putting a hundred percent of my efforts back into this YouTube channel.
我现在正在重新调整自己的工作重点，将全部精力重新投入到这个 YouTube 频道中。
So what's next?
那么，接下来该做什么呢？