I finally outgrew the character that made my career | Jaleel White · Big Think
讲述演员Jaleel White从童星经历中走出，反思自己如何在演艺事业中成长并摆脱迎合他人的性格。适合练习自我反思和表达成长经历。
Let's roll all around if we haven't.
如果我们还没这样做的话，那就让我们一起开始吧。
This show is called The Me I Used to Be.
这个节目的名字叫做《曾经的自己》（The Me I Used to Be）。
It's about looking back at your life.
这其实是在回顾你的人生。
Not just what happened, but how those moments shaped you and what you believe about the world, about people and about yourself.
不仅仅是发生了什么，更重要的是那些时刻是如何塑造你的，以及它们让你对世界、对他人、对自己产生了怎样的看法。
And all we want is your honest take on what you were thinking back then, how you were feeling back then,
我们所想要的，只是你对自己当时所想、当时所感受到的真实想法和感受的坦诚分享。
what these images meant to you.
这些图像对你来说意味着什么。
How you see it now and why.
你现在是如何看待这件事的，以及为什么会有这样的看法？
You ready?
你准备好了吗？
Yeah.
是的。
Let's cue our act one real?
那么，让我们正式开始第一幕吧？
No.
不。
I was raised in Los Angeles, California.
我在加利福尼亚州的洛杉矶市长大。
My dad was a bus driver in Los Angeles for many, many years.
我父亲在洛杉矶当公交车司机已经很多很多年了。
I have very vivid memories of my mom taking me as a toddler
我对小时候妈妈带着我的情景有着非常清晰的记忆。
and putting me on my dad's bus route and I would sit behind my father.
然后把我送到爸爸每天乘坐公交车的路线上去，我会坐在爸爸的后面。
While he drove, I was very, very proud to talk to all the strangers and let them know my dad is the bus driver.
当他开车的时候，我感到非常自豪——能够和那些陌生人交谈，并告诉他们我的父亲就是那名公交车司机。
My mom worked at the post office.
我妈妈曾在邮局工作。
She could always vanish from her job, take me on a commercial and get back to her job without getting fired.
她总能随时从工作中“消失”（即暂时离开工作），带我去拍广告，然后再回到工作岗位，而且不会因此被解雇。
Oh boy.
哦，天哪。
I think I wanted to have to give you something for this.
我想，我应该为此给你一些东西作为回报。
Hey.
嘿。
I got into acting as a kid to make money to go to college.
我小时候开始从事演艺事业，目的是为了赚钱上大学。
That was my mother's number one goal in priority.
这是我母亲最优先考虑的目标。
I did approximately 15 national commercials.
我大约参与了15部全国性的广告拍摄工作。
Oreo Cookie,
奥利奥饼干（Oreo Cookie）
Apple Jacks,
苹果杰克（Apple Jacks）
Pepsi.
百事可乐。
You name it.
只要是你能想到的东西，都可以。
I did so many of them.
我做了很多这样的东西。
I still know the song.
我仍然记得那首歌。
But as a black kid in 1989 and before, it was pretty much a foregone conclusion that you would be the best friend.
但在1989年及之前的那个年代，作为一个黑人孩子，你很可能会成为另一个黑孩子的最好的朋友——这几乎是一个既定事实。
You would have a line here or there and the residuals would come in and, hey,
在这里或那里会有一些数据点（即“线”），然后残差值也会被计算出来。嘿……
mom could use that to pay for some summer camps and the rest goes to a trust.
妈妈可以用这笔钱支付一些夏令营的费用，剩下的钱则会存入一个信托账户中。
The ambition wasn't that deep.
这种雄心壮志其实并没有那么强烈（或者说，这种雄心并没有深入到内心深处）。
But somehow, when it was time to perform for a group of people behind the camera,
但不知为何，当真正需要在一群人面前表演（这些人其实都在摄像机后面）的时候，
I was acutely attuned to how others were seeing my performance.
我非常在意别人对我的表演有何评价。
You have to hear the audience yourself telling you how you should tweak who you are.
你必须亲自听听观众的意见，他们会告诉你应该如何调整自己的形象或行为方式。
That's where all the people pleasing came from.
所有那些善于讨好他人的人，都是从那里产生的。
You've told this story a million times, but if you can just tell the concise version of how you got into family matters,
你已经讲过这个故事无数次了，但如果你能简要地讲讲自己是如何卷入家庭事务中的，那就太好了。
our audience is going to want to hear it.
我们的听众肯定想听这个内容。